Wednesday, February 6, 2019

3 Months

Today marks 3 months since we lost Timmy. Not lost forever, but lost in this life. Hebrew King David said of his lost son: 

“But now he is dead, wherefore should I fast? can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.” - 2 Samuel 12:23

We continue to process, we continue to move on. Different things are triggers that bring a lump to our throats, or a tear to our eyes. 

For me (Kevin), my first tax client of the season walking in and asking "How are all your kids doing?" as we walked over to my desk was a question I wasn't prepared for.

Watching the movie "Wonder," a movie about a child that had many medical needs and whose life required the family to adjust in many different ways, we were struck by what different emotions the movie stirred up since Timmy had passed away. 

We all still struggle with the questions like "How many kids do you have?" or "How many brothers and sisters do you have?"

But most of all, we still find ourselves enjoying talking about Timmy, and remembering Timmy. Through pictures, through stories, through memories that we made together. And we are still trying to find ways to honor Timmy as a family.

We have cooked dinner for the families staying at the Ronald McDonald House in Rochester. We are scheduled to do it again on Timmy's birthday this year. We are going to a family camp this year as a family. And we wear our Timmy shirts with great joy individually and as a family.

On this month-aversary, I just wanted to share that we are still processing and doing OK. And I wanted to share some pictures of the last 6 months of Timmy's life, sharing some pictures that may not have made the blog before. The last picture is not how we remember him, but is a reminder of that special day that we celebrated the love so many had for him.